photograph each day 28 June 2006
things are looking up
"The secret things belong unto the Lord our God: but those things which are revealed belong to us and to our children for ever, that we may do all the words of this law."
Deuteronomy 29:29
I remember this passage in the Bible from Papa Noel's preaching, and now I realize he has no idea how much this has helped us, Kate and I. I was thinking, maybe the Lord had a purpose when Papa Noel preached this one, mainly to comfort our family. I was praying that the preaching tonight would be directed to us, to somehow ease this sadness.
And guess what, it was about Rest, casting your burdens to God and everything else that weighs you down. And we can't help crying in church, even when Ate Rhoda, Mama Dels and Kim approached us. Kim even said na nakita niya talaga ang bonding namin with Kristoffer, and I wanted to cry na naman.
But we were thinking, we can't keep doing this. I mean why can't we just think of HunkyPunky and be happy and thankful that we got to be with him? I was reading my last post and I would always want to go back and read that, because it reminds me that things will seem better each day.
And instead of saying things like the six weeks he was here was not enough and how we're trying to fit in everything because we missed a lot during that time, we were thinking that maybe we should thank the Lord that He let us be together, even for a short time. I mean what if this vacation did not push through? What if HunkyPunky did not go to the Philippines? We'd still be avoiding phone conversations, and we'll miss the joy of knowing and loving this wonderful wonderful person.
Then we found out this morning that the Fete will push through, and we got terribly sad. And this is the first Fete dela Musique that Dad and his band will play. We've been planning things for HunkyPunky during his stay here, one of them the Fete since it's once a year and it's a great music festival.
Whenever we get unbearably sad, we ask Dad how he felt when he was in college and Papa Noel left for the Navy. It's comforting to know that other people went through the same thing too, others even worse, and they managed to cope.
Now it's as if everything is rearranged. Kate and I sort of had this long-term goal, and part of it was to travel, probably in Europe. We planned to do that before we get married, maybe to enjoy each other's company before we went on with life. Now we want to do it with Kristoffer. So we were talking earlier and we presented this proposal, and he agreed. So we'll have a Eurotrip or something probably in 3 or 4 years. Ahaha it cheers me up now, thinking about it.
We were also trying to figure out what makes us this sad. Maybe it was the fact that 6 weeks just wasn't enough. Maybe it's because Kate and I always do things together and we go out most of the time, just the two of us. Then HunkyPunky comes into the picture, and we jive so well and we've included him in our daily activities that it's hard to forget he was with us. He went with us to school, to 7-11, to Video City, to Mister Kabab, Jollibee, Starbucks, Old Spaghetti House, to STC (yes, he was even able to go to our high school when Kate got her annual), Greenhills, Ice Monster, Mcdo, Shang, Ministop, Mall of Asia, Tagaytay, church, Market Market, etc. OMG if I put in every single place we went to it would be a long long list. So when we do those things again, something feels missing. Like I used to sit in front of the cab because Kate and him were at the back, but now it's simply Kate and me at the backseat. And we used to sing loudly inside taxis and laugh noisily and ask him to dance ahahaha. And maybe because we never had anyone who could understand even the lamest and corniest jokes we made, but he's a fan! Ahaha. We have tons of private jokes that nobody would understand, like the SUSHI SASHIMI!, and the case of the pink jewel stickers, and his pagka-panis, and his cool cool bluetooth ahaha. Truth is, we've really KNOWN HunkyPunky for just a short time, but it feels as if we've been together since we were small.
OMG I realized just now that it pays to talk positively, I feel better. He always asks us how we're doing, and we don't lie to him. We told him that we cried the whole day on Monday, then yesterday we had these unbearable bouts of sadness. Kristoffer is probably waiting for the day he would ask us how we're doing, and we can all laugh about it and just remember how happy we were when he was here.
In the meantime, we'll just have to talk with him often. I want him to know we're always here, he can call or send sms when he needs us. After all, he's the one we count on the most these days, while we're trying to overcome the sadness.
See, HunkyPunky? Mahal ka namin talaga :)
Deuteronomy 29:29
I remember this passage in the Bible from Papa Noel's preaching, and now I realize he has no idea how much this has helped us, Kate and I. I was thinking, maybe the Lord had a purpose when Papa Noel preached this one, mainly to comfort our family. I was praying that the preaching tonight would be directed to us, to somehow ease this sadness.
And guess what, it was about Rest, casting your burdens to God and everything else that weighs you down. And we can't help crying in church, even when Ate Rhoda, Mama Dels and Kim approached us. Kim even said na nakita niya talaga ang bonding namin with Kristoffer, and I wanted to cry na naman.
But we were thinking, we can't keep doing this. I mean why can't we just think of HunkyPunky and be happy and thankful that we got to be with him? I was reading my last post and I would always want to go back and read that, because it reminds me that things will seem better each day.
And instead of saying things like the six weeks he was here was not enough and how we're trying to fit in everything because we missed a lot during that time, we were thinking that maybe we should thank the Lord that He let us be together, even for a short time. I mean what if this vacation did not push through? What if HunkyPunky did not go to the Philippines? We'd still be avoiding phone conversations, and we'll miss the joy of knowing and loving this wonderful wonderful person.
Then we found out this morning that the Fete will push through, and we got terribly sad. And this is the first Fete dela Musique that Dad and his band will play. We've been planning things for HunkyPunky during his stay here, one of them the Fete since it's once a year and it's a great music festival.
Whenever we get unbearably sad, we ask Dad how he felt when he was in college and Papa Noel left for the Navy. It's comforting to know that other people went through the same thing too, others even worse, and they managed to cope.
Now it's as if everything is rearranged. Kate and I sort of had this long-term goal, and part of it was to travel, probably in Europe. We planned to do that before we get married, maybe to enjoy each other's company before we went on with life. Now we want to do it with Kristoffer. So we were talking earlier and we presented this proposal, and he agreed. So we'll have a Eurotrip or something probably in 3 or 4 years. Ahaha it cheers me up now, thinking about it.
We were also trying to figure out what makes us this sad. Maybe it was the fact that 6 weeks just wasn't enough. Maybe it's because Kate and I always do things together and we go out most of the time, just the two of us. Then HunkyPunky comes into the picture, and we jive so well and we've included him in our daily activities that it's hard to forget he was with us. He went with us to school, to 7-11, to Video City, to Mister Kabab, Jollibee, Starbucks, Old Spaghetti House, to STC (yes, he was even able to go to our high school when Kate got her annual), Greenhills, Ice Monster, Mcdo, Shang, Ministop, Mall of Asia, Tagaytay, church, Market Market, etc. OMG if I put in every single place we went to it would be a long long list. So when we do those things again, something feels missing. Like I used to sit in front of the cab because Kate and him were at the back, but now it's simply Kate and me at the backseat. And we used to sing loudly inside taxis and laugh noisily and ask him to dance ahahaha. And maybe because we never had anyone who could understand even the lamest and corniest jokes we made, but he's a fan! Ahaha. We have tons of private jokes that nobody would understand, like the SUSHI SASHIMI!, and the case of the pink jewel stickers, and his pagka-panis, and his cool cool bluetooth ahaha. Truth is, we've really KNOWN HunkyPunky for just a short time, but it feels as if we've been together since we were small.
OMG I realized just now that it pays to talk positively, I feel better. He always asks us how we're doing, and we don't lie to him. We told him that we cried the whole day on Monday, then yesterday we had these unbearable bouts of sadness. Kristoffer is probably waiting for the day he would ask us how we're doing, and we can all laugh about it and just remember how happy we were when he was here.
In the meantime, we'll just have to talk with him often. I want him to know we're always here, he can call or send sms when he needs us. After all, he's the one we count on the most these days, while we're trying to overcome the sadness.
See, HunkyPunky? Mahal ka namin talaga :)